First n foremost, Hello. It's been a while since I posted bout relationships....got nothing much to say these few weeks actually....just dat my mind is full of worriness. Is dat even a word?haha! xpa asal paham...
Oh my!! wad to do wad to do?? Nektok ngah cuti midsem+CNY...but i'm still at unimas tegelir2 xtauk mok polah apa....makan tido jak keja..mok g lab, kakak master xda so xtauk gney mok meneruskan step experiment seterusnya...bingong ngn fyp eyh..suddenly bingong....haiya....
When i googled Happy ending, this was the first picture shown..yup.sure is happy endings only happen in movies.Because in real life, happy ending is so hard to find. This entry will show emotions and my view on love n relationships.
When u thought that u already have a happy ending because u finally get the guy that u like, well think again because its just the beginning. There will be a long long road after that and nothing will ever be the same again. All the feelings, emotions and tears that being put into the relationship will eventually comes together as u grow older and become a precious memory which not only u kept in a special box, but heart too.The memory no one can ever take away from u. Even after a break-up (if there is ever one), the road continues..no matter how moved on u think u are, a part of u are still there in that road a little bit. U try to live with it, but it always gets around, re-appear..then u start to think, what is wrong with ur heart? Why can't it just let things go..
And for that, u r lucky if there is someone who hold on tight on u. Someone who loves you very much and believe in you every time you're struggling with your own feelings. In a relationship, we need to sometimes remind ourselves n our love one that u love each other despite all the tensions n problems arising in between. Don't give up easily when there's a fight. Don't go find another just to feel better, because u will make things worst, believe me..u will. What u gotta do is work it out..talk from your heart to heart his/hers, try to solve the problem and u'll eventually see, the sparkles of love is still there. Remember why you choose to be with that someone in the first place.
I personally admit that when it comes to dealing with an EX is pretty much complicated. Especially when the last relationship ended because you just have to let him/her go, without any anger or bad feelings for each other. When this situation happens, it is hard to live with because u won't be able to move on fast because the feeling still lingers. Maybe the other side move on faster than u r n dats when it will hurt the most..just to see him/her moving on with their lives, happier than ever and u just be able to watch them from a faraway distance. It will take a LOT of time, effort, self-motivations and of course tears..if the tears u cry can be converted into rain, it'll be a really heavy, continous rainy days..since it had been pouring for years. This sort of things may confuse ur feeling..frequently..every time u heard 'the songs', go to 'the places' or even when it rains..u'll get really confused, wad actually is ur heart going for..is it still screams for memories..but the present n future is more promising..sometimes u can hear whispers in ur ears saying that u still want ur memories back, but then reality give u a loud n bold ring..that d past is the past, memories are memories, don't ruin them b'coz that is the only joy u got left to remember about n to be kept forever in ur heart, despite how painful they are..just try to quit chasing the impossible.
Ted Mosby said "When 2 Exes decided to be casual, there's always someone will get hurt"
Don't hurt anyone please..not even yourself.
When your heart is diverted from the right path, luckily there'll always be someone to put it right back on track. He/she will remind you that they are ur future..n a promising one.
Love, u said thank you because i inspired u to change to be a better person. Yes u did..u had improved a lot since day 1 when i first knew you. But...i didn't do much or perhaps i din't do anything to make u change..U change on ur own determination..and that's how i know how much your love is for me..i love you for you're the only one who can love me this way, who can stand with all my flaws..and who can make me feel special, even though i know i'm not dat much of a special person. For u are my conscience, my clown...my man.
Ya ayat lam lirik lagu ana rafali 'Tolong ingatkan aku' sebenanya...ku xpaham apa maksud ayat ya..cam bunyi gadget doraemon jak hehe...apa maksud nya ow? takorg tauk x apa..? padah lok....adoh, ng lamak x molah entry baru eyh...busy bah (malas sebenanya ;p) entry aritok ku mok cita sal waste management & recycling..x apa, tadik rah kelas environmental biotechnology mekorg blaja sal ya bah...interesting juak eyh subject ya..pas abis kelas alu asa cam bok abis attend talk bout the environment rah dewan suarah kuching jak, nggu mok pat sijel jak gik haha!
Okey2, waste management and recycling. NIMBY syndrome..tauk x apa ya? Not In My Backyard Syndrome
.....pa maksudnya? We only care for wad we see and don't give a damn for wad we don't see..SAMPAH! ktkorg penah tepike x, cne tju dak sampah2 d rumah kita ya pas kita buang? ofkos la dak moto sampah amik nak..pasya cdak muang ke tempat pelupusan sampah..tapi nak..lamak2 xbetimbun ka nya oww? ku slalu wonder aiee...then tadik baru ku tahu yang d tempat2 ya ada la dak illegal people slalu dtg n collect plastic bottle, cans, n smua benda2 yg pat direcycle la...cdak la yg nolong kita manage waste kita secara tidak langsung..cdak do it for.....of kos la MONEY! People won't recycle if it isn't for money..mena x?? menaaa...(mun sik..u r the only exeption la hehe..good2!) The higher price they offer for buying old newspapers, cans, bottles etc2...the more we want to recycle..sapa xmok duit pree2 out of things we considered junk?aku maok.....hehe (mata duitan $____$) aok, back to NIMBY syndrome..kita xkan lalek ngn apa yg kita xnampak bah, cm sampoah kita tek, buang jak ke cine2, byk brilliant idea sal gne mok polah a better n sanitary waste site, tapi mun di tanyak rah sine mok polah..suma madah Not In My Backyard! Aku pun xmok tapak pelupusan sampah berada di area umah aku...hence, kita sebenanya harus menukar cara kita as a member of the society berpiker..ubah mind-set kita bah..mun xmok sampah d blakang umah, cobala berusaha kit mok recycle barang lebeh2 gik PLASTIK. tok ng masalah terbesar coz tempat pelupusan sampah akan di clear n dijadikan kompos alu membentok a new piece of land, tapi 90% agik tinggal plastik! polisterine juak..benda tok pure sintetik bah..xpat di degrade oleh enzyme dak microbe2 lam tanah ya...lecturer ku madah tadik, jgn menapau! tapi mun menapau, make sure u recycle juak bekas polisterine ya..k ngkah poda ka pa..alu ku imagine, penoh jak la bilit ngn bekas tapau haha! k ngkah bunga pun swai ooo...kakya k bury precious things pun swai juak cam dlm cita salu bah..tanam kotak berisi batu permata hehe...(merapu~~) emm..pa ku padah tek oww...aok plastik..yala problem utama..maybe someday akan ada org berjaya engineered bacteria ka apa yg pat degrade plastik..hopefully. Wah...chukup la takat tok. Esok sambong gik..mok mam Chocolate indulgence ngan Bday Girl lok..Happy Birthday Siti oii!!
